Wednesday, June 29, 2016

句点

把自己画上一个休止符, 就等于画上了一道疤痕,
人家说休息为了走长远的路,我觉得休息让自己更清楚的要的是什么。

把自己画上一个问号,就等于画上千千万万的不安,
纠结问题到底问不问,该不该,适不适, 是不是。

把自己画上一个感叹号, 就等于画上了怒愤,
所有东西都会伤害自己与对方,厉害的,严重的,不滤的。

把自己画上一个句点,就等于结束了一切。
什么都没有,或新的开始。

加油

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

祝我自己生日快乐

不知不觉已过了一段日子,两个人还是没有达到共识 。
热恋期过了,适应期即将来临,
所有的承诺,在热恋期都会变得像真的,可是一旦过了,
都变成了不重要或自己说过的话,想放屁似的,放了没了。
每一段,都会这样。
自己麻木了,也习惯了。
独处的时候,最自在,最开心,可是最空虚,最寂寞。

生日前夕,生日天,生日夜晚,好像过得毫无意义。
听到身边朋友,那么努力或早就帮另一半庆生,自己的却。。。。
想着想着,还是第一次生日遇到这样的事情发生。
生日当天,不是最大吗,我觉得不是。。。
发生了很多事情,伤了痛了哭了,也变成了痕迹。
累与痕,爱与恨,

安抚不了自己心中的疼,
弥补不了自己心中的痕 ,
了解不了自己心中的冷。

漫长的夜晚, 滴滴答答的秒针 ,安静的,慢慢的 ,
一切尽在不言中,

Plan, celebration, surprise, neither........

Was my birthday weeks. full of surprise by my friends and family. but not the one i m waiting at...

dinner time:- 
me : do u ever think to celebrate for me
J: hmmmmmm
O.S....he not even care about that, doesn't him. make me speechless.
what kind of relationship is this?

mentioned so much that this kind of celebration is important to me.if din ask by me,then mean nothing?

first time i ever need to ask my the other half to plan, to celebrate for my bday. is totally upset n disappointed.  

(bday eve)
texted me that plan to meet me tonight wan to celebrate till midnight.. then i told that i m meeting my friend for dinner (normal routine). then he cancelled. wtf?

after class straight away get his call. my students help me to celebrate 2 cakes in once right after class. then decided to drive home without asking me. i was waiting waiting n waiting. fine. 12am. no calls no msg text me good night. whatever.

i rather celebrate with my close frens n family or even alone rather then keeping up this kind of rubbish.......

it mean to be happy yet it ruined my celebration. yucks.


whatever it is.. enjoy the good sleep. n everything.

i will be good to celebrate alone..

thanks.

nitez.


说好的幸福呢?